| i'm stressed. really, really, really stressed. i was expecting my financial situation to be tight this summer, but now i'm not going to be working at my real job for the summer. i didn't expect it to be this tight. i can't get over how much money i've spent that i would have saved knowing i would be out of the money i was counting on to pay my bills. i can work at vita bella, but all i can do is pick up shifts and that means i just have to hope that someone wants the day off so i can make money. i'm stressed about school and how much catching up i have to do in such a short time. i'm stressed that chelsey is coming soon and i'm so excited to see her but i can't even begin to stomach the fact that, this time, i honestly have no idea when, or even if, i'll ever see her again. the finality of this visit is going to make it rough. so many things are bumming me out. people i have to talk to, people i want to talk to but can't, my dog, my car, my parents, my future, traffic tickets, everything i'm doing wrong. i hate feeling this shitty. |
